some alone time

Time spent alone... Is a time well spent. That's what i keep telling myself. But is it really nice to be alone ? Just a bit of a dilemma period i guess... Right now, i'm sitting at The Bakers, just finish my sandwich dinner. Enjoying this horrible coffee-waiting for Keat. We are supposed to go ikea shopping. Our hse project is taking a bit of a delay :(

Back to the dilemma... The past long Christmas weekend, been going out, with this girl from Salsa class. More like she teman me out, coz we go out with my friends... Out in groups, not like a 1-to-1 date la. To me, it is like out with a normal friends mar...

But... I think she is taking it the wrong way. I mean, there is nothing wrong with her... Nice lady (cause she is elder than me), kind of a simple girl next door type of girl. How should i put it ? To me, it was just normal going out with friend. I think she takes it as if we are dating. Cause her words and actions clearly shows it...

So..... Then i'm now asking myself, am i not wanting a relationship or am i just not wanting a relationship with her ? Still can't really answer tau question. Probably i've been bit too comfortable being single ? What's wrong with going out and have no strings attached...

Her signs are strong... But i control myself and not being too physical with her. Not saying that i wanna sleep with her la. But i draw a border, dun get too overly physical, respect mar... No guys... She is not throwing herself onto me. Don't think she's like those cheap type of girl...

Confusing huh... I enjoy her company, out for dinner and movie. Believe, it has been te longest time since i last went to the cinema. Now... How am i to put it to her in the nicest most gentlemen way that i'm not looking for a relationship just yet... Pros and cons aside, still don't feel like commiting myself. So much more for me to do and think about...

Alrite... Keat is here... Time to finish up this horrible coffee and start shopping. Think bout this dilemma later. Meeting my dear Kenix later for a cuppa at Starbucks...